Graphophobia

I really admire people who can write well. It is very depressing when I love to express myself through writing but fear to write. Not only my command of English is poor, I lack of confidence. When I stare at blank white paper ( or blank screen) the feeling of fear just overwhelms me. I don't know which word to start off, or which point to begin. Worst, I feel pressured or afraid of any grammar cops criticizing about my writing or maybe, laughing behind my back on how lousy my sentences were.

My classmates could write better, my friends could write better, my cousins could write better, my sister could writes better. And me.....~sigh...WILL write better!!!